Fog, and thin places

See how unbothered these girls are, moseying to their milking! Traffic jam, Azores-style … five minutes for me, while driving, to unhurry myself as they shamble – confident, casual – along a known road to the ritual afternoon appointment.

If there were previous lives, I would have been a cat – cold water, ugh! If future ones, perhaps a life of contentment munching sweet grass with my cow-sisters?

For now, I’m human. And I live on an island where the clouds come down, soft and wet, and – because my species’ instincts are subdued – blurring destination. The fog’s chill startles, while giving no clue to the meaning of the visitation. Is there any?

A poem I love by Iowa-born Amy Clampitt (1920-1994), titled ‘Fog’, features the New England coast, but she could as well have written it about our cliffs and shores: ‘A vagueness comes over everything, / as though proving color and contour / alike dispensable: the lighthouse / extinct, the islands’ spruce-tips / drunk up like milk in the / universal emulsion; houses / reverting into the lost / and forgotten; granite / subsumed, a rumor / in a mumble of ocean.’

Her descriptions of both process and detail are uncannily similar to images of my mid-Atlantic locality: on this one Earth, the phenomenon of fog is an experience that is – I pick out her word – ‘universal’. I remember encountering its family likeness in the place I lived previously, on the UK’s Suffolk seaboard.

The American poet goes on to demonstrate how scaled-down sight accentuates touch and sound. In context, surrendering to these underappreciated pleasure zones, and orientating ourselves by our other senses, may be the only feasible approach. And practically it may be wisest, having ascertained our position, to stay put until what she calls the ‘opacity’ dissolves.

All this speaks of a physical journey. But what of the psychic fog of difficult decisions? Not much asked of cows other than to breathe and stomp in the fields: whereas our lives as people, individually and internationally, seem to get more complicated by the day.

Balancing mid-way through the first draft of a novel, I rate author EL Doctorow’s famous quote: ‘Writing is like driving at night in the fog. You can only see as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way.’ Neither a pantser (flying-by-the-seat-of …) nor plotter, I have a story outline the length of this blog, know where I want to arrive in due course. But to traverse the intervening territory I must beat a path. It’s a metaphor and learning curve for the whole of life.

So, how do I do that? And keep my head and my peace in the process? Research thoroughly, follow my gut, compare lists of pros and cons? These sound excellent techniques – when travelling on a clear day.

A phrase I scribbled down from a blessing by Irish poet, priest, and philosopher John O’Donohue (1956-2008), ‘For A New Beginning’, defines the goal for my state of being. He urges, ‘learn to find ease in risk’; and in the fog, if I’m to have any future at all, that’s what I have to do.

The New Testament also reminds me: ‘We walk by faith, not by sight.’ So, if we each do what our intelligent minds conclude is right, listen to all that conscience tells us, and uncover intuition in the depths of self where the Spirit of the Divine and our soul shake hands – we may just take the right next step? And one good move will lead to another.

During the richly coloured season of autumn in the UK, around the time of Hallowe’en (31st October), All Saints’ Day (1st November), and All Souls’ Day (2nd November), it is easy to imagine the customary mists do indeed denote thin places where the spiritual and material worlds collide. What I’m reaching for here, by analogy, is: amid uncertain circumstances that demand we choose, there’s something about fog that draws and expands us because it demands our trust.

The construction of this very post is an enactment: starting with a mere feeling at the edge of my consciousness as I contemplated the photo I’d taken; letting it speak to me, interrogating what my subject matter suggests; inviting literary companions to share their insights; stitching between outer and inner journeys to make sense of both.

No matter how sure we try to be, I don’t think there’s any substitute for this. Driving through fog – literal or metaphorical – is a trust game.


4 responses to “Fog, and thin places”

  1. Peg Hough Avatar
    Peg Hough

    “…there’s something about fog that draws and expands us because it demands our trust.” I like that line quite a bit! We get quite a lot of it here! Especially this year. And can trust that the weather will get better, that the bright greens and blues of this island will shower us with color again soon.

    1. Rosie Avatar

      Thank you, Peg. Yes, there are so many shades to our island, aren’t there – each, in its different way, intense.

  2. Kaon Golden Avatar

    Your prose is both emotionally and intellectually engaging. Exactly what it is supposed to be.
    What you write is transcendental.
    It is your use of imagery and writing skills that drew me in, after your introductory photograph.
    I was left wanting more.
    While you use other sources of written work to explore how to accomplish your ultimate goals successfully, your introduction leads me to think that all you wish to accomplish lays within you.
    After all, we are made whole by those that have touched our lives. Their work lives within you.
    Your prose alone is physically, emotionally and intellectually stimulating. It draws a reader in.
    It reaches within the reader that which is more than what is physically apparent.
    It also begs for a higher level of curiosity. The kind of curiosity that is human in nature.
    While I am not an expert on how a cow thinks, I am pretty sure that what you so expertly convey, is not within their reach.
    You will make the places you describe famous, just like so many other authors have done in the past.
    You can make your readers take time to reflect on the meaning of their/our existence.
    You alone can take people that read your work beyond their “everyday” life, to that which we intuitively know is within us, our soul.

    1. Rosie Avatar

      Thank you for engaging so deeply with the blog, Kaon. I was being light of heart and mind regarding what the cows are thinking! I can lean towards the intense, but there’s a not-altogether-serious side to me too. Your comments are generous – much appreciated.

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